|Five of Swords (R) - You are experiencing the despair
felt after a defeat. See how your mind creates doubt and pessimism - look
directly at your defeatist thinking. You defeat yourself with your own
doubt and skepticism. It is time that you look at changing your own
attitudes - let go of your pride and release this narrow view point - your
own "ego" is inhibiting you. An old wound has been opened and
you are experience fear associated with that memory - thoughts that
history might repeat itself or that you could be hurt again. Your vision
has been distorted by the past. Allow yourself to be sensitive to this
deception in a personal situation - be receptive to the things that are
causing you all these emotional problems. When you are involved in an
unfair decision that is hard to correct - be patient with your emotions.
Too much or too little mental freedom - uncertainty. Too many or too few choices. Mind looks at itself ineffectively and will tend to be too passive and lax or will be over enthusiastic and cause havoc. Criticism of self and others can be harsh and inaccurate. A sharp tongue. A sense of mental loss rather than gain. Anger, confusion, argument, covering things up, impulsive, impatient, hasty, nervous, stubborn, complacent. Inappropriate worry, sadness, depression, disappointment, guilt or shame. The general is concentrating on his plan of retreat.
Questions to Answer: Do you expect to get "stung" in this situation? What are you afraid of? What is causing division in the solidarity of your group? Why don't you feel good about what you are doing? What do you need in order to feel good? What would be the ethical thing to do? What is so important to you that you have to prove everyone else wrong?